juz received a call saying that grandma being admitted to CCU from normal ward. Mum and dad preparing to go visit her at this time. Her sickness is getting worst day by day... how long more do she need to suffer like this?
So many things happened recently... things happening to me.. to my family n etc .
Who noes that i'm not very happy? Who will understand my feelings?
1 more hour and i need to get ready to Broga Hill. But it seems like a windy night and i hear thunderstorm.. will it rain soon? better not.
I can still picture us in the car.. holding your hand...
although you keep asking me why am i holding your hands and shaking it off.. i noe u dun really mean to.
I can still picture us kissing in the car park. The way you held my head not letting it go... the way you lean on my shoulder and in the end burst into tears.
I can still picture us in the CD shop while you are browsing through CD's....
Me hugging you from the back and you keep asking me why am i hugging you when we are just frens... but i can feel that you are actually leaning on me...
I noe that i've hurt you bad...
but i'm not feeling good too throughout this period.
I noe that i've never really let go of you when i say "separate for a while".
That's juz because im confused whether to follow daddy or you...
Anyway... you've set a conclusion for our story...
and i'm glad that you've finally made up your mind.
Even though it is not a happy ending for me...
but i take it with respect... a respect from me to you...
I'll feel happy to see you happy.
Time passes so fast... we've known each other for 3 years... Happy 3rd year anniversary.
I'm sorry that once again, i can't celebrate your birthday with you this year... but i'll still definitely send you a present.
Although that I'll be gone from your sight... but i'll support you and think of you silently behind your back.
Have a good nite.. sweet dreams and sleep tight.
(40 more minutes to preparation time)
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