Love is in the Air

This afternoon, while my nephew is playing with his "ah gong" (my father) , he took out one cardholder from his front pocket. So coincidence, he flip to a page where there's a family picture of us. It's a picture of us at KLIA airport just b4 i left Malaysia. That's when i know that dad actually bring a picture of us with him no matter where he goes... =(

This reminds me about last week when we were at Pahang. I asked dad: "daddy, i still cannot buy ah?"
He replied : " Boy, why till now u still don't understand? There's only 1 reason daddy dowan to buy for you.. it's because daddy is worry bout your safety... You think daddy "kiam siap" that money? The reason is just one.. and that's the only reason.. Everyday daddy also need to tell "guan yin ma"to " poh pi " you and "er jie jie" because you two are away from home... Daddy is not because "kiam siap" that money. "


I can feel the love...   <3

What can you do?

Just got home from "Despicable Me" with Ting Yi an hour ago...

It touches my feelings seeing Mr.Gru sending the three kids back to the orphanage..

It is just like us losing one another...

It feels so bad when someone just disappeared from your life...

A person whom you used to talk with everyday...

A person whom you used to wake him/her up in the morning...

A person whom you sing to make him/her sleep at night...

A person whom you spent most of your time with, regardless of the distance and time zone...

A person whom you used to see her smile everyday...

A person whom you watch him/her having breakfast...

Now, this person is gone...

What can you do?

What can i do?

I can do nothing than just disappear as well...

What happened to me ???

4.10 pm...
Sue : What happened to you... what has US turns you? become so lame liao!
Me  : not all d while also like tat de meh?
Sue : nola.. last time very very guai one ! dun talk much!
Me  : ahhh... so which 1 better?
Sue : hmmm... if pick , now better! last time like stick!

Muahahahaha.... =P

I'm Back Once Again~

Alrite.. I'm back once again...
Where have i been for the past weeks?
I actually went to Beijing with my dad and sis. Mum didn't follow us this time because she was complaining about the weather being too hot. Indeed, it's true that the weather over there is hot, not much difference from Malaysia. Walking under the sun for 8 days... you can imagine how much darker i am.
This tour is all about Beijing, not much about any other places, just Beijing.
When it comes to China, shopping is definitely something not to be missed. So yup, we did quite a lot of shopping... Of course, we don't buy those "ding ding dong dong" things over in there.. we buy things that we really use like a handmade vase for our beloved Guan Yin Ma, pewter tea container, tea leaves & etc.
As usual, you can't miss the mountains, greens, buildings and histories when you come to China. Actually, the two things that i have been exited about in this trip is to see the Great Wall of China and the Bird Nest Olympic Stadium.

Here are some pics! =)

Reached home on the Friday midnite.... and i was "invited" to go to Pahang with my parents on Saturday noon.. Gosh!!!
take note, it's "invited".. LOL
Stayed at Pahang for 1 nite and reached back home at 6 something in the evening today...

Now i really tired, exhausted and a bit headache...

Worst of all,  there's something i wanna get but the color is out of stock and i can't find anyone selling the color i want anymore!!!! I've tried many many many n many sellers... ARGH!!!


Nitez~

Home Sweet Home~

Alrite.. I'm back in Malaysia...
12.22 am.. feeling kinda ok...i would consider the trip to be quite good but of course, spent a lot too...
Anyway..gotta go somewhere else again tomorrow noon...gosh~
Will blog again on monday when i come back. Tara~

Good nite.

All set to go~

I'm all set to go...
left a few stuff tat i'll have to bring along tomorrow...
Look at the "must have" stuff that i'm bringing this time... =)

Finished my sociology course already.. YAY !!!
Gotta leave at 5.30am tomorrow... Tata Malaysia!!!
Tara~~~

男人女人

男人喜歡女人 

有些女人還非常天真
不懂男人
只等待著關燈
女人喜歡男人
要男人只愛一個人
這是萬分之一的可能
男人有個疑問 每當夢醒時分
身邊的女人 是不是最愛的人
所謂幸福快樂 可不可能到永恆
女人不停的問 男人不想過問
兩個人快樂不平衡
女人用下半生 換男人下半身
男人孑然一生
可是女人卻步步高升
這讓男人 低頭不敢吭聲
女人燃燒青春
每晚要護膚皺紋
沒有化妝 就不敢出門
男人有個疑問 每當夢醒時分
身邊的女人 是不是最愛的人
所謂幸福快樂 可不可能到永恆
女人不停的問 男人不想過問
兩個人快樂不平衡
女人用下半生 換男人下半身
男人為了女人
只能悄悄想別的女人
入夜時分 去敲別人的門
女人為了男人
從女孩變成了女人
男人女人都做出犧牲
男人有個疑問 每當夢醒時分
身邊的女人 是不是最愛的人
所謂幸福快樂 可不可能到永恆
女人不停的問 男人不想過問
兩個人快樂不平衡
女人用下半生 換男人下半身
男人喜歡女人
有的女人只喜歡女人
男人女人
最好兄妹相稱
女人喜歡男人
而男人只喜歡男人
男人女人都是一樣的
男人女人都在渴望著
平凡簡單的幸福快樂 

Stupid move...

I'm making that stupid move again...
Y just can't i control myself for a bit longer ?
I shouldn't continue making that silly move...
it'll only bring more heartbreak...

I feel like u r changing... i feel that u r walking towards another direction...

I MUZ STOP MYSELF FROM REPEATING THE SAME MISTAKE!!!

(only one person will understand wut i mean...)

thx liwei.

Done with shopping...

I guess i'm done with shopping...
I've got myself 2 pairs of shoes tat i'll bring over U.S... one is for badminton and the other one is for formal occasion.
Not to forget.. a 10 meters long ethernet cable. I'll have to rearrange my room when i get back. =)
I'll bring my ArcSaber over too.. he'll meet with my 2 old buddies...

Hmm... basically tat's wut i do nowadays...
shopping n movies n gym n assignments...

my body is aching badly... i can feel the pain on my chest when i cough a little...
i can feel the pain all over my body when i twist a little...
anyway, i dun hate this feeling.. kinda like it actually.. coz it means that i'm not being lazy.

watched quite a lot of movies throughout this summer...
1) IP man 2
2) Toy story 3
3) The karate kid
4) The legend is born, IP man
5) The flirting scholar 2

Most probably gonna watch these in the upcoming weeks:
1) Despicable me
2) The back-up plan
3) Salt
4) Knight and day
5) Frozen (hopefully can make it)

Tomorrow's my dentist appointment together with dad.. ouch.. gotta hurt. =(
4 more days to complete my assignments... good luck to myself !

kinda came out wit our penang trip plan with han ning, kenneth and cezlynn juz now...
everythings seems to be fine.
date is kinda set.. juz nit double confirmation b4 proceeding to hotel booking..
It's gonna be nothing other than vacations for the coming weeks.. =)

Daddy.. i wanna come back this december too.. can i ? (puppy eyes)

1.09 am... signing off. Good night...
To those who are staying up for the world cup final... Good luck... don't lose all your fortune. =p

(i'm missing you)

10.40pm

I'm running out of time...
5 more days till departure... and i still have assignments not done... gosh....
but den ofcoz not till very very charm la.. i still can finish it in 5 days...

kinda tired today... went aeon to have lunch with parents this afternoon.. b4 tat stop by FF to hv a short chat with frens... aftertat went n walk around with parents at aeon while waiting for their appointment for massage...

i bought some dog biscuits and nail clipper for mimi... it has been so long since i last pampered her...she loves it a lot...

today's badminton is kinda tiring...especially when my body is already aching.. anyway...sweat a lot.. it feels like a sauna inside there.. =.=!!!

10.44pm.. signing off.. =)

(wishing u a gud nite, sweet dreams n sleep tight)

2.20am

2.20am
I'm still awake coz I'm worried how r u.. Wondering r u home yet..
I dun dare to really call u.. Coz I'm afraid u might b sleeping d.
So I tell myself to try call u only once..
U didn't pick up my call..
Hopefully u r home already n sleeping now..
Have a good night m sweet dreams.
I should sleep too.

Dizzy...

Dunno why when i woke up this morning.. i feel so dizzy..
i cannot really walk and feels like im going to collapse anytime...
is it bcoz i cried too much last nite? i dunno...

anyway i feel better after my lunch at around 2 something...

juz back from dinner with family and my sis's father-in-law n family.... i drank a few sip of XO and white wine...
all i can say is it's not my drink... dun really like these alcohol stuff... anyway dad ask me to train abit.. it's time to learn to drink abit..

( i'm really worried bout you n your outing tonite... luckily u've promised your mum tat u'll not drink.... i really feel alot alot more relieve hearing that... )

OMG !

Before i forget...
As in my previous post i've mentioned that i forgot to bring my key so i have to sleep in another room...
bcoz of this something really funny happened..hahaha...

This morning my dad woke up and somehow feel that the exhaust fan in the "another room"(the one im sleeping) is on from his toilet.. den he went to the room and turn on the door knob, realizing that it is locked.. den he went to my actual room and did the same thing . Ofcoz, it is also locked... den he went and tell my mother that i brought a fren home at midnite.. den he saw a backpack outside (the one i brought to gym), den he tell my mum should be my fren's bag...

after tat lagi charm.. my mum went to the door and saw a white flip-flop... she went and tell my dad.. confirm chin yew brought someone home last nite...

didn't they noe all those stuff are mine??  =.=!!!

this morning when my eldest sis came over.. i was still sleeping.. den the maid tell my sis : "nanti buka pintu hati-hati sikit..jangan buka terus...chin yew bawa kawan balik."

den my sis called me and ask me which room am i sleeping at before she opens the door... later on only they manage to somehow figure out what's actually going on..

OMG !

Poor me

That's the only one way whr i can peep on 1 pic of u once in a while..
n that's the only one way i can see very very little updates about you..
i feel so sad of myself..

I really hope that the person appearing in my blog is u, but i have no clue at all who is that...
tracking down the IP address and stuff.. i still can't confirm that it's you..
but looking at the time that person appear... it shouldn't be you..

Rio non-stop putting his bone on my feet and biting on it... will he accidentally bite me? (scared)

Went and collect my visa and ArcSaber that i've ordered yesterday...
den both sis went shopping to look for a present for her F.I.L and i choose to stay at home...
I'm basically done with the day... juz waiting for gym tonite...

12.24am

12.24 am.
I juz got home from gym and yum cha wit the gym kakis.
Den I realize I actually locked myself outside of my room. My key is inside d drawer.. Gosh.. How can I forget that..
Luckily there's still one empty room for me to sleep. Or else I'll hv to spend my whole nightn in the living room..
Then, I tot everything is fine till I realize my toothbrush and facial cleanser is in my bathroom!!! Lol.. Means no nit to brush teeth tonite d.. Hahaha.. Have to wait till tomorrow mOrning only I can enter my room again.
N also lucky tat I have my phone wit me so I still can online.. Phew..

( I think u shud b sleeping now... Have a good night.. Sweet dreams n sleep tight)

emo post

my sis keep asking me why did i close my fb account...

and i tell her that's bcoz there's NOTHING TO PLAY..

last monday, my aunt asked me got gf d?

i replied: nola

den she said... i see ur fb status still single hor...

i replied: close d lo fb... NOTHING TO PLAY..

she said: wise choice.

But, is it really bcoz there's nothing to play ?

only me noes...

thank you liwei for borrowing me your fb account b4 this all the while...

really sorry to trouble you, changing ur password everytime b4 lending it to me..

and u've nvr question a thing and borrowed me without hesitation everytime.

thanks a lot...

honestly, sitting at my grandma's funeral ceremony, so many things came into my mind...

i'm thinking that what if i suddenly died... will you come help out at my funeral and accompany me for that few days?

if i suddenly died... will you cry and tell me tat u still loves me?

i noe they r all nonsense... but it juz came to my mind at that time.

there are some things that i wished i could do... but i couldn't accomplish immediately... but i noe i can make it b4 i go back. i juz nit more money.

1 by 1

One by one..

Things are happening to me one by one...

Am i at the very bottom yet?

coz a person at the very bottom have only one way to go.. which is upwards...

I wish that i'm already at the very bottom...

I need to start CLIMBING UP !!!!!

I've wasted my whole morning actually basically doing nothing...

But for sure i'll do my assignments and assessments this afternoon after lunch...

Gotta go starbucks in the afternoon and later on workout...

(Thanks for your concern. I appreciate it a lot.. deadly wish to have a longer chat wit you.. but all i can say is just goodnite... coz i noe no matter how long the conversation goes... it'll not change a thing. I'm glad that i didn't take the pictures from you... or else i'll end up staring at the pictures everyday, making my life more miserable.)

Broga Hill Adventure

So, everything has come to an end...

Grandma's funeral ceremony is over.

May she R.I.P .

It is a tiring day... took an almost 3 hours nap this afternoon.. (yawn) n i feel like going to starbucks again now. =.=!!!

okay.. maybe should blog about my Broga Hill adventure.

As i said earlier.. i didn't sleep for the whole night that day and ended up watching 1.5 matches of football. It's not because of football that i didn't sleep... it's because i can't sleep tat's y i went n watch football.

I got ready at 3a.m... and depart at 3.45a.m to pick up 3 of my frens...

Guess what? we reached there so so early that i'm afraid there's nobody there...

Fortunately, there's already a few cars there...

(5.08 a.m , we made it to the parking lot. LOL)

Without wasting time, we went up n reached the highest peak at about 6.20a.m .

A few minutes later.. that's when i receive the message about the death of my grandma.

ok.. erm.. let's talk more on broga hill.

It's kinda slippery that day because it has been drizzling that morning... It gets heavier when we were at the peak of the hill.

Climbing up the hill is not as easy as i thought.. we sweat a lot and our shirt is all wet. haha.. seems to be a better exercise than body combat class.

But, it is a good experience... climbing up the rock and stuff is not easy... coming down from the hill is worst. i like it! =)

Hmm... so here are some pics to share.. can't upload much coz i'll have to compress the sizes of the pictures. =)

Enjoy~

1.17 am

1.17 am...

not as tired as yesterday...

but it's time to sleep.. gotta wake up very early tomorrow..

My mum's fren say that grandma very "gao" choose time.. choose a time where everyone is back, including me...

Quite true also... i'm glad that i came back for summer break. If not i would have miss the chance to send grandma for the very last time...

Grandma.. R.I.P.

tat's all for tonite.. i'll continue blogging nxt time. nitez ppl.

1.22 am

1.22 am..

i juz reached home about 20 mins ago..

So.. as mentioned in my previous post that i'm going to Broga Hill..

Indeed, i went to Broga Hill and i didn't sleep for more than 24 hours that day just to go to Broga Hill.

I reached the highest peak of Broga Hill at 6.20am.

BUT !!!! few minutes later i received a message from my dad saying that grandma has passed away.

For sure that it is sad to hear that. But on second thoughts, it might not be a bad thing too coz i've mentioned that grandma has suffered too much pain throughout these few years.... I can't put into words the pain that she suffered.. It's just way too much for a ordinary person.

Now, she no longer have to suffer the pain anymore. Should i be happy for her?

It's very late now... i'll continue to blog more next time. I'm now physically and emotionally tired.

Tomorrow will be another long day...

1.46am

It's 1.46am...

juz received a call saying that grandma being admitted to CCU from normal ward. Mum and dad preparing to go visit her at this time. Her sickness is getting worst day by day... how long more do she need to suffer like this?

So many things happened recently... things happening to me.. to my family n etc .

Who noes that i'm not very happy? Who will understand my feelings?

1 more hour and i need to get ready to Broga Hill. But it seems like a windy night and i hear thunderstorm.. will it rain soon? better not.

I can still picture us in the car.. holding your hand...

although you keep asking me why am i holding your hands and shaking it off.. i noe u dun really mean to.

I can still picture us kissing in the car park. The way you held my head not letting it go... the way you lean on my shoulder and in the end burst into tears.

I can still picture us in the CD shop while you are browsing through CD's....

Me hugging you from the back and you keep asking me why am i hugging you when we are just frens... but i can feel that you are actually leaning on me...

I noe that i've hurt you bad...

but i'm not feeling good too throughout this period.

I noe that i've never really let go of you when i say "separate for a while".

That's juz because im confused whether to follow daddy or you...

Anyway... you've set a conclusion for our story...

and i'm glad that you've finally made up your mind.

Even though it is not a happy ending for me...

but i take it with respect... a respect from me to you...

I'll feel happy to see you happy.

Time passes so fast... we've known each other for 3 years... Happy 3rd year anniversary.

I'm sorry that once again, i can't celebrate your birthday with you this year... but i'll still definitely send you a present.

Although that I'll be gone from your sight... but i'll support you and think of you silently behind your back.

Have a good nite.. sweet dreams and sleep tight.

(40 more minutes to preparation time)

Free ---> Busy

Free ---> Busy.

That's how my life is going on...

it has been a productive day yesterday and today...

worked on few chapters of my sociology assessments as well as english assignments.

Have to finish up everything before i go for vacation with daddy n sis...

Going out for seafood dinner with frens in another hour...

Broga Hill.. i'll finally step on you tomorrow after so long...

Will be departing at 4am ! woohooo...

after that will be gym? mayb~ =)

den gonna watch the new IP Man with parents in the afternoon..

after that badminton?? ( If i get to buy new racquet coz racquets r currently at U.S )

n ofcoz not to forget.... more assessments!!!

so.. i assume that it's going to be another busy day tomorrow...

btw.. i hate "sei qin lan da"(cantonese) ppl and im glad that i didn't turn to become one this time coz i noe when to let go. =)

gotta go get myself prepared... tata! =)

( I need to get myself busy so that i can stay alive and won't be dead missing you )

all d best

I can no longer send text to remind you to drive safely n be careful anymore. But i'll wish you silently to be safe every now n den till u find da one who will fetch u to n fro everyday.

I wish you all d best...

i'm sorry for what i've done.